Today I got the train home from college, I was just looking out into the views of the sunny surroundings we have.. and all I kept thinking off was I need to start making something of myself, be the person in my family to make something of ourselves. I feel like I live the same stupid life everyday and it meaning nothing, living it alone, feeling like no-one wants you. being single doesn’t help but that’s not my point I want to feel those eyes, you know the eyes of people looking up to you or even those eyes of someone caring about you. I feel that today I made a change in my life that wasn’t gradual it was a solid change that I knew had happened. Today marked a day where I could say perhaps i should try harder.